3 WEEKS IN

Well, here we are: 3 weeks into no-spend January and still alive and breathing! We have approximately 1 week left, and part of us doesn’t want the challenge to end. This experience has been incredibly fulfilling, and actually lots of fun! The largest consequence, and perhaps the result that we both are enjoying so much, is the re-centering around home. Rather than eating out, we’ve been cooking together and eating in, instead of going out, we’ve been settling in. We’ve explored new places, read some good books, organized and simplified, and had lots of quality time together. I’ve taken (many) baths and practiced yoga; in a sense I’ve unplugged for the external world, and gotten back in touch with my heart and inner person want and need.

I feel closer to Carlos, healthier and better-fed, happier and more content with all that I have. I actually recognize the irony of this challenge, is our privilege to undertake it in the first place. We have everything that we need, we live in a safe home, in a dynamic and engaging city, with natural beauty all around us. Yet despite these things, the challenge has still proven to be difficult. It’s funny how the wanting of one thing, leads to the next, which leads to something else. The additions to our “want to buy” list have been in spurts, making me think that the spirit of consumption feeds off of itself. I have put money very intentionally towards student loans, savings, and organizations doing important work.

In the tough moments, when my heart feels that bit of anxiety, the itch that begs to be scratched with just a small purchase (or three) off Amazon, I’ve had to re-frame that desire and look inside: What do I really want? What can I do in this moment to  come alive, feel more connected, and serve myself or others? Sometimes that answer has been to try a new recipe, another time it was to paint a picture, often its been to read a book (I’m on my 4th for the month!) With that simple re-framing I have felt more productive, satisfied, and content. I’ve realized my incredible capacity to be a homebody and introvert. This challenge has given me a pretty good excuse to stay in and charge up, I think next month my challenge might need to involve finding ways to get out and give back.

Here’s to one more week of no-spend bliss, and hopefully a lifetime of living conscientiously, simply, and well. Today I feel gratitude for my #1 partner in crime, who I get to live this life with. I am thankful for the privilege to undertake a challenge like this, and the authority to create the kind of life I want to live, in a place that I choose.

Let your light shine, baby! Do good & be goodness. ❤

The Greatest Power of All

Dedicated to my beautiful nieces, may your days be happy and dreams fulfilled. 

For when you feel tired my child
Just close your eyes and see
The beautiful ocean in front of you
The sand beneath your feet

Like the trees standing tall
And glistening in the sun
So does your soul shine
Touching everyone

The people of every nation
Of every color and creed
The beauty in us all
Is within our hearts indeed

And if you are overwhelmed
Or wonder what to do
Just close your eyes softly
And look inside of you

Within your very own heart
You hold the greatest power of all
The power to dream, act, and be
The best person you can be

In fact, if you look really closely
You’ll see love is the most powerful tool of all
For love can change the world
If we all answer the call

So with your eyes closed
And the ocean in front of you
Anything is possible, dear
Anything you can do

My Mother

Dedicated to my Mom and our beautiful Mother Earth

My Mother

Feeds me, bathes me, holds me
clothes me, soothes me, loves me
water for my body
love for my soul
I am because she is
I live because she did
allow me to be born
nurtured my existence
nutrients in my sustenance
everything that I do, everything that I see
it is all her, it is all me

We are one
and I live through her, because of her, with her
together we are invincible, unstoppable
full of power, untouchable
the peaks of the mountains, the depths of the sea
no matter where I am
I am because of she

Now the time has come
when I must be a child no more
it is time for me to stand up, find my voice
feel the movements in my soul
the calling in my heart
the need to give back to my mother
to soothe her wounds
to provide her food, care, and love
to tell her thank you
for all she has done

Now it is my time
for even the moon gives respite to the sun
the stars shine brightly, but sometimes they fall
the waves break when they hit the shore,
only to form again and then crash once more
the leaves change color and reunite with their ground
the clouds give way when the rain becomes too much to bare
all of these things, signs of care

And now my mother
it is my turn to show you
that your child has grown
I’m proud to give, I’m happy where I am
and so thankful to live

So let me give you, just a little bit of what you gave me
let me soothe your heart with a lullaby
and scare away your bad dreams
let me feed you with my heart beats
let me love you, with the love that you taught me

I am because you are
Thank you for being my mother
I love you

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